One Direction

So what is it so special with these lads that got me hooked? It started when I went out with a few close friends. I am the type that listens but rarely talks, so they prolly tried to get me into talking that they sneered at me with something about 1D which I can vaguely remember. When I got home, I was actually worked up by the teasing. Then, it hit me; they are a boyband. I love boybands! And there are not a lot of boybands in this era. Plus, I know a lot of their hit songs; catchy tunes I might add. So I took a listen to their 2nd album, Take Me Home, which is my favourite one so far. There is nothing on that album that will make me hit that skip button. The second day I had their album in my playlist, my sister heard One Thing blasting out loudly in my headphones and her response was, 'euw why is that song playing?'

And this came in when I felt really low. Have you ever felt you have been given a lifeline, only to be ripped off from it so suddenly that you got too disoriented? It kind of felt like that; and every song in that album really lifted me up. They sounded so cheerful, so happy; they remind me of my teenage days, how it felt to be a teenager again. It was really nice. The positive vibe was so radiant that it left no space for negativity. Over time, of course there will always be a favourite member in the band :P who cares they are 3 - 6 years younger than me? I do look like I'm in their age range, or maybe even younger than that ;)

Since then, I've been following their releases closely; their second movie will be out in October, only for a weekend. And get this, the movie will only be available on 11th and 12th of October, and I have a morning run on the 12th *I crey* and the tickets are already available now in most countries but not here :( and their 4th album will be out later this year, can't wait for that! They even gave a free teaser from 'Four'; Fireproof is like a foreshadow that they are heading down the Westlife lane but I'm not settling for anything just yet. Ah, roll on November! Oh yes, even 1D Day! They had this 7-hour live streaming last year, which in local time, started at 3 am. Yes, bloody hell, did I wake up and watch it HAHAHAH it was fun and the fandom is hoping for another run this year. Don't bet on it, girls. The guys are too busy, and I feel sorry for them sometimes. Yes, they get to live their dreams and all but I hope exhaustion will not be the cause of their downfall.

Courtesy of Google

So to sum it up, the boys make me feel like a teenager again and they helped me to get over one of the crappiest moments in my life. Some people will deffo ask, why not just deal with your miseries head on, instead of running away from it? Sometimes, dear friend, you will never get the answers to everything. It's best to just replace it, rather than to rue over it for far too long. I made a promise; which it was my kryptonite and that promise together had sealed off my rights of sharing my horrible feelings to anyone at that point of time. So thank you, Niall, Liam, Louis, Harry and Zayn :)

"They say when a door closes, another opens. I went to the opened door, only to have it slammed shut at my face with my foot stuck under the door. For too long I waited there but then I realized, there will always be another opened door. But this time, I'm afraid to even walk towards it."

Take 5

A train of new updates in the past few days. Yeah, I kinda lost the passion to write anymore. In fact, I've lost interest in doing anything at all. I need someone to talk to openly about everything I'm feeling right now, but... ah well.

Before the train continues running, after the 5 latest Glee-pisodes, I've finally found my fav song of the lot: Paradise by the Dashboard Light. I watched the rerun from the first episode to the latest one the other day while waiting for the new episode this Friday. Love Finn's husky voice in it!



I couldn't take it any longer
Lord, I was crazed
And when the feeling came up on me like a tidal wave
I started swearing to my god and on my mother's grave
That I would love to the end of time
I swore I would love you to the end of time
So now I'm praying for the end of time
To hurry up and arrive
Cos if I gotta spend another minute with you
I don't think that I can really survive
I'll never break my promise or forget my vow
But God only knows what I can do right now
I'm praying for the end of time, that's all that I can do
Praying for the end of time so I can end my time with you

I always bounce wherever and whenever I hear this song. At the very least I can put a pause to this horrible feeling for 3 mins tops :D The train will most prolly continue its journey next week. So in the mean time, toodles~

Looks can be deceiving

Last month, I went to the Touch n Go counter to top up as always. Then, the lady at the counter asked me about the real card holder cos she thought I came to top up on behalf of my parents haha!

Then, a few days later, I went to the bank to open an account. Since there was a slight problem with my ic, the bank officer listed out the documents I need to bring in the following week to open an account. She checked the list and asked me whether I'm under-aged or not cos the documents are mostly in possession of someone who is not under-aged haha!

The following week I came back to the bank. This time around, I was entertained by another bank officer. While she was processing my application, she asked me of my age. I know what was on her mind and smiled at her haha!

There was once while we were buying our groceries, my mom bumped into one of her new colleagues. Her colleague asked me where I'm currently studying at haha! As usual, the mummy will say that we're sisters and she is the younger one haha! Yesterday, we bumped into another colleague of hers almost at the same spot. Saw me and told the mummy that that kid (that's me) looked similar to my mom. My mom said 'ah, that's my eldest'. Her friend asked 'Oh, tingkatan berapa ni?' hahahaha! The mummy was bursting with laughter and told her that I've already finished my studies. She was shocked and said I look tiny. Err, I have no idea why I failed to be a little bit muscular. I already ate a lot though, but no effect. The weight still stayed in the same range. Strange.

The mummy told me I got it from her cos people kept telling her that she looks younger than her age. I guess it runs in the family then haha!

Press Play

I've been longing to learn how to play piano. But sadly, I can't read the music notes argh my sister had taught me several times before about the middle C but somehow, I can't seem to remember it duhhh~

Now that I've found some sheet music for Westlife songs, my hands feel like touching the piano haha! But still, I can't read those weird symbols :(

I can play Starlight, sung by Muse and also the birthday song *if you're lucky, I may call you to sing happy birthday on your birthday :p* cos my sister already scribbled down the keys. So all I have to do is adjust the paper strip that contains the keys on the piano cos I still don't know which keys yet grrr~ basically, I know nothing but pressing the keys. Anybody can do that, I guess haha!

Looks like I need to rely on Google for the time being *sigh*

The Love for Cats

Prolly cos they're a bunch of cute furballs :D Ever since I was a kid, there would always be at least a cat in the house. When I was little, my family lived at my grandparents' house. My grandparents also have a soft spot for cats. Whenever my uncle or my aunt bumped into a kitten without its mom, they would take it back home with them. We took care of them until they've grown of course :)

After 1 semester in UiTM, my friend called me up one day to tell me that my turn to buy her cat had come. My family and I went to her house to take a look at her kitties. Her mom had already chosen one for me; she told me she chose the smartest one cos I'm smart *tak betul ni haha* anyway, the day to take the kitty home had come. We decided to buy two kitties; to pair them up so that they will expand the family tree XD

Now, the male cat has gone without a trace. But we still have the female cat and her grown-up daughter.

So, this cat, we call her Chip. I gave her that name cos she was born on the first day of Ramadhan. That time, I felt like giving names like Raya biscuits and so I did; Choco and Chip. Choco was adopted by my relatives who live just a mile away from our house. Choco died a few months ago without knowing the cause of its death. But we suspect Choco died cos of food poisoning. Most of our kitties died because of it.

*da jauh nyimpang dari tajuk ni XD*

There is only one way to make Chip follow you around no matter where you go around the house. Just pour some cereal into a bowl, she will start to watch you at that time. Then, pour some milk inside the bowl. After she sees you closing the door and walking away from the fridge, she will try to chase you. There was once I almost managed to hide from her, but she chased me upstairs and followed me to my room haha! All that she wants is the milk. She prefers to drink milk after anybody had done eating their cereal. So, we would leave some milk for her in the bowl and let her drink it.

Chip waiting for her turn to have her milk haha!

There are times when she feels like getting our attention. She will sneak inside the room and sitting on my desk. This one mischievous cat had turned off my pc for several times, sitting inside my box for the fun of it, sitting by the window watching the birds outside, sitting behind the monitor, biting the wires grrr~

Trying to get our attention

Everyday I see cats but I just can't get enough of them. As if I've never seen them before haha! Shady (he died last year also cos of food poisoning) was also one of the hyperactive cats but can be very fond of us at times. Whenever I cried, Shady would always come and sit beside me. While crying, I would give him a pat and stroke his long-furred coat *pathetic gile haha!* Whenever I felt happy, he would come to play with me. I had to be careful while playing with him though; he had some trouble controlling his claws XD

The longest one to live was Tamtam. We had him under our care for 8 years. We took him from a relative in Kota Tinggi when we visited this one granny's house. He was missing after we got back from Bali in July 2007. My parents suspect he died after a snake bit him. He once got bitten by a snake. His right cheek was swollen and one day, it burst out blood. We weren't at home that day. When we got back, we saw blood all the way from the living room to upstairs. He was sitting painfully by the stairs. A couple of weeks after Tamtam went missing, I went to UiTM to further my studies. There was this one guy in my class, they called him Tamtam. At first, I was felt awkward to call him by that name cos that name is our family's favourite for cats haha!

When the felines were going to have their litter of kittens, I would stay and watch them, support them while they were trying with all of their might to deliver the kitties. Like you're watching a miracle. I don't dare to watch a baby being born, so I guess watching the kitties can compensate that XD

I still remember the dead cats. There are times they came up in my dreams. There was another Shady; he died cos of failure to control his bladder and infection last April. I can still remember that day, that was when my friends were busy with their final year project. A day before he died, he didn't make any noise like he used to. He used to scream from his cage, begging to be let out from it. But we couldn't; he couldn't control his bladder and he would piss every step he took around the house. So we locked him up. My mom was torn; she couldn't decide what to do with Shady. She wanted to send him to the vet to put him to sleep. I told her to not do it cos to me, I have no right to take his life. It's like killing somebody, but you're hiring a bounty hunter to kill the target. She didn't send him away but she was still in doubt whether it was the right thing to do or not cos every second he lived, he suffered in the cage with pain of the disease and agony of being locked up.

He no longer let us hear his voice and he didn't eat; he was such a pitiful sight. A few minutes before he died, I watched him and talked to him so that he would eat. But he turned his head away from me, as if he was angry with me of not getting him out of the cage. That was the last time I saw him alive. My dad came to look at him a few minutes later, and his head was dunked in his bowl. My dad called my mom, and they watched him. But they didn't see any movement; his head was still in the bowl. My dad held Shady in his hand, he was still warm. My mom had already cried at that time, asking my dad whether Shady was dead or not. I wrapped him in a piece of fabric and put him in a box. When he was still alive, he would let off a foul smell coming from his behind. As I was wrapping him, he didn't smell bad anymore. I cried while wrapping the body. Then, my brother dug a hole and put the little body in the ground.

When Shady was little, about two weeks old, we took him to the vet. The doctor asked us to come again in a few weeks if the medication didn't have any effects on him. A few weeks later, I took him to the vet after class with my brother. The doctor said Shady couldn't be cured cos he was born with the disease. A day after Shady died, I still cried over it. I wondered whether I made the right decision; to stop or let my mom from sending him to the vet. Well, at least he didn't have to suffer anymore.

a plan

Well, it's just a plan. Not necessarily will be carried out though XD

I've planned to do a lot of things after the Infosys training ends. Just to kill the time while I'm unemployed heheh

1. Learn how to cook

I can't cook even to save my life. I keep forgetting what to put inside and how much to put urgh my parents kept bugging me about how I suck at cooking haha! *it's not like I'm gonna get married soon la aiyoo~* But I'm better at baking though. You just have to follow the recipe and measure the ingredients precisely XD

2. Make some chocolates

A few weeks ago, Hemie asked me to find her a recipe on how to make chocolates cos she wanted to make chocolates made with love for her boyfriend hahahah! I thought, hey why don't I give it a try? A nice homemade chocolate just for me :p

3. Cupcakes

I've seen a lot of cute cupcakes on the net. Like always, I'm tempted to try to make some haha! I like what they always put on top of the cupcakes, cute patterns and all. Usually, what I imagined will not turn out to be the end product haha!

4. Cut my hair

It's been a year since I've had my hair cut. Before submitting my final year project, I told myself that I would cut my hair if I managed to pass the subject. I did it! So, need to visit the hair dresser. Oh, for the Muslim girls out there, X-Cut in Tesco Shah Alam is the perfect place to get your hair cut. They provide a special area for girls who wear tudung to cut their hair.

5. Brush up some skills

I need to brush up on my programming, cos I only know the basics of most languages I've learnt. Before I apply to any jobs, I want to prepare myself so that I'm not gonna be clueless especially after diving straight in the IT field without the basics after matriculation.

Think I should keep the list short so that I can manage to accomplish them all :D

25 things I hate about you?

Saw this while I was reading Put's blog. Some time ago, I've been trying to do this but I always forgot about it. But now that I've remembered it, let's get the-25-things-you-hardly-know-about-me thingy movin'!

1. I don't talk much but I like chatting online. Prolly cos chatting online gives me time to think of what to say. Which brings us to....

2. I feel nervous everytime anybody calls out for me. Dunno why, prolly that's why I don't talk much. haha!

3. I actually eat non-stop whenever I feel happy. When I'm unhappy, what's the point of indulging myself over delicious cuisines, yeah?

4. I'm very observant. I tend to over-analyze what everybody else does *not being nosy, ok!*, and whenever I have the chance to bug someone about it, then I would ask about it. Mostly, my observations have been accurate, well, almost :p

5. I used to be someone who keeps everything inside. But when I turned 21, my life also turned 180 degrees. There are times people would see my gloomy face but most of the time, happy face is all you can see :p But I don't scream at people when I'm upset, except my youngest bro >:)

6. I haven't scored a goal since February 2009 :p oh dear, almost 2 years already! Dang it!

7. I'm very emotional so much so that I drown myself in errr 'meleleh' songs! haha!

8. So far, I've said to have resemblance to 3 people; my mom, my grandma and my aunt.

9. A while back, a close friend of mine told me that I look like Paris Hilton. Bloooooody hell. My dad also told me I look a lil bit like Cheryl Samad. urgh I don't like her cos she looks like someone I really hate. Eh, wait a minute.....

10. I'm a sucker at watching lovey-dovey movies. A Walk to Remember, High School Musical 1-3, Juno and too many to be mentioned :p

11. I can withstand low temperatures but not high temperatures.

12. I talk in my sleep.

13. I think too much, till the thoughts of it came up inside my dreams at night.

14. I tend to be cold cos I don't like to let my feelings show. It's as if I've shown to the world my weak point. Hell no!

15. My mom still chooses my clothes. I just wear them haha!

16. I hate it when I've already said that I'm ok but people keep asking me whether I'm fine or not and then, patting my shoulder. Even when I'm fine at that time, I may break down and cry haha!

17. My mom told me when I was a baby, I was the easiest one to be taken care of. I didn't cry much, behaved myself to cut the long story short :p

18. I enjoy baking but I suck at cooking. pfftt~

19. I like numbers so much so that if Maths is a man, I'd prolly married to Maths :p

20. One of my besties said I'm very faithful to one. Yes, once I set my eyes on someone, I don't see any other guys and plus, I don't enjoy having spare parts :p

21. I enjoy making people happy, even if I have to do the silliest things to make them happy. Cos they made me happy :)

22. I've never been out of the area I'm currently live in. There was once, when my dad was still studying in the US. Other than that, never!

23. I'm easily pleased. You can say anything *as long as you're not lying* or do anything *even if it's a stupid thing to do*, it's the effort that counts :D

24. I have poor visibility at night. I don't prefer to drive at night and to to top it off, in the rain at night. Ah, that's just perfect!

25. All I can see now is that either I'll be a programmer or a Maths teacher. Duhhh

That's it then. 25 of them. Don't feel like tagging anyone. Till then, toodles~